I worked 5 years in a office job I was the
other,
never able to blend in the office mob
Too different to care
too young to ignore
The funny part is I was educated to belong
But some bell rang in me
first time I step in there
It was like I couldn’t breath
And nobody would care
Cause I was not like them
And empathy is linked to
similarity
Is linked to
Familiarity
Is linked to my next days behind a lonely desk
I was anxious to stand up
People would always stare
I never wanted so bad
to be invisible
I guess my light’s too bright
and I was too permeable
Each morning
I had to fight myself
“How should I dress?”
My clothes were tight and short
They didn’t scream success
To feel more comfortable
Spent half my salary shopping new clothes
“Hm now.. this is it.. I look professional”
The days went by
The staring wouldn’t stop
Some colleagues warned me
It was my wardrobe
That men looked at me
differently
And leadership noticed
I needed to cover myself up
If I wanted to keep working
I was trying so hard to not stand out
But nothing I would do was enough
I had so many doubts
how was their perviness my fault?
But then I realized
None of it was about the clothes
You know where don’t belong
The world makes sure that you know You feel it in your bones
Don’t go against your flow
Just cause somebody told you so
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I daydreamed for so long to have the chance
to quit But some days I felt like staying
that was fear of being free
If I looked to the side
I could see people I went to school with
They were working twice as much
and making half my salary
“You should be grateful”
Gramma said that to me
She was actually proud I’ve finally conquered my independency
And I had done it fairly
Never stepped on anyone
Never accepted any favors
Didn’t cause any damage to no one
So why was I so sad?
Gramma didn’t understand
I had all she’s ever prayed for
I did what was in the plan
She could never understand
I wasn’t born to live her dreams
I wasn’t born to be like water
I wasn’t born to hide my gleam
I wasn’t born to just obey
I wasn’t born to be like eve
I was born to find out what being alive truly means
I came to breakdown beliefs
I came to bring back our peace
I came to be where I’m at now
Today I can finally breathe
Today I can finally breathe
Today I can finally
You know where you don’t belong
The world makes sure that you know
You feel it in your bones
Don’t go against your flow
Just cause somebody told you so
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